Bizarre Week

Hello again, Sam here!

I decided not to write this week the blog cause of a very low-key week anyways I backed myself to write, so here it is the weekly blog with some learnings.

Remember I had mentioned in my previous blog about the Ca Final results,so this week our results (Ca inter) date was supposed to be announced and it was announced on Tuesday that the result were to be declared on Thursday. So from tuesday onwards the fear of results became a little closer and this time I had high expectations cause I had worked very hard this time and was confident in clearing the exams. This time Ca final results were announced early in the morning for the first time and similarly, we expected them to be announced early morning for Ca inter results. As we all know how time reacts when we wait for something. Wednesday felt like it went very fast the daytime and I slept early that day. Thursday I suddenly woke up early morning at 5am and I wasn't able to sleep after that in anxiety of results,so I waited till 7.30 am and still results were not uploaded so I slept and thought they would be uploaded around in the afternoon. I woke up again around 9:30 am and checked once again and I saw the results were declared and it was written there fail. I was shocked after seeing the results cause this time I had genuinely worked hard and so I expected to pass this attempt,but life may be has different plans. It was tough to take in this time, I felt numb. I had my office so left for office and I told my office people that I had failed, they were very helpful and indeed very supportive, which helped to some extent to gulp that numbness. Later, I saw that the pass percentage was 5.46% which turned out to be the very least for the first time .(If 100 people had given exam then only 5-6 people cleared) Well that's how Ca exams are and sometimes its just very stressful, you would feel like your life is going nowhere and you are just struck in the middle of an ocean. I asked all my friends about their results and turns out no one cleared literally nobody. I even talked to some friends about their future plans whether they are going to continue or choosing another course. Some were continuing and some shifted to Mba, I was still undecided on this. Inspite of all this my parents were supportive they obviously were unhappy but they backed me and they advised to take my own time and decide whether to continue or not. I slept that night early and woked up late by 9am. As usual went to office on Friday,that day I asked everyone about advice on career and I just kept my mind open for advices to take a decision. My parents had planned for going out for weekend and I wasn't interested cause I wasn't in the mood but still they insisted,so I went. On Saturday morning we left and came back on Sunday night, this trip was good and it was much needed for me to reflect on life.

Shortly describing my learnings from this week :

1) There's a major difference between pain (physical) and grief (psychological)

2) Reality will always hit you if you don't adapt to change .

3) Alway be open to advises, you never know which might help.

Lastly, after taking advises from everyone, I decided to left CA course and pursue a similar professional course (not yet decided). Moving on is tough sometimes but still you need to take those decisions which will be fruitful for your future.

Nonetheless, life's still great. See you next week :)

Thank you for reading till here <3

Bye,

Sam

25/07/22