Die Empty

Hello again, Sam here!

The last few months have been quite exhausting, challenging, happening as there were some new changes and some usual recurring events.

Unfolding one by one!

As I have mentioned in my last blog, I was searching for a job and finally joined into a Big 6 Firm in the middle of June. The expectations I had and the reality that hit me was nerve wrecking as the culture, peers , mindset entirely took a shift. My previous job although comparatively became a comfort space for me, i still had to leave at the cost of comfort.

Not complaining, but may be there is something off or my expectations are set too high seeing the brand - Big 6 , i would call it perception - glitch.

That's how I would describe my June and July - similar to the rains - you expected a rainy month and it turns out entirely opposite.

Moving on..

This year august had all the major festivals collated into one month, unlike other years.

Personally, I'm someone who loves festivals a lot, they come with family gatherings, happiness , gossips and much more.

August had all the fun mainly Raksha Bandhan and Ganesh Chaturthi were quite eventful.

However, due to my academic commitments I had to somehow navigate my way and make a strict balance between enjoying festivals and studying to getting closer to my degree.

Every year I call all my friends (society and office) to visit my home and enjoy prasad during ganeshotsav. Last time only few came & none from my office, but this time most of my friends came including people from office. I feel that there's a vast major difference between your normal friends and the friends who have visited your home and have met your parents. I say that because once your parents know your friends and have met them, there's a sense of trust which gets built-in sub consciously. Next time, when you are struck somewhere, they know whom to contact.

(Zakir khan once said in his podcast named Umeed - Jab koi tumhari ghar aake baithega, aur jab tum unke ghar jake baithoge, toh ek sense of responsibility hota hai. ek jawab dehi banti hai, aap apne dost ko galat salah nahi desakte, kyu? kyuki - aap uske maa-baap se bhi mile ho aur ghar bhi baithe ho. kal toh agar kuch galat hogaya apke dost ke saath toh unke maa-baap aapse sawaal kar sakte - kyunki aap unke ghar jake baithe ho :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TW5n_cUDdMU

Nevertheless.. August was pleasant <3

September was the busiest month of all, started with my exam and I had my office working almost everyday including Saturday and Sundays. At the last week of September - there was festival of Navrati. I couldn't even celebrate due to busy schedule.

There's an irony in celebrating Navratri and worshipping Durga in India - as even misogynists pretend to pray to the holy goddess.

( The rituals around any festivals are always questioned by people or for that matter even communities too. The interesting things about this is that everyone in their life seeks comfort in the form of god which helps them balance out and tackle their mental well being. However, the old questions on existence would still have old gullible answers, which is unique to each individual )

Lastly, the title of the blog was named "Die Empty" as we all are bounded by our own memetic desires picked up by society or even from the environment you are living on.

"Most People die with everything still inside them".

The regret from graveyard often is louder than any noise in this world.

You got one life - 4000 weeks that's it and all of "You" or "I" vanishes like a wave.

You gotta die anyway, better to take that chance at your desires rather than taking them to grave.

Thank you for reading till here. I hope you die empty :)

Bye,

Sam <3

07/10/2025